To deal or not to deal
Time is ticking. I only have 12 hours left before I decide what comes in the next 6 months or so of my life. I hate pressure and I’d love to say “if you pressure me more, you’re done”. But I just can’t say that. We’re talking about what I’ll be doing after the 26th of July (and the compensation that comes with it) and some indefinite future. *sigh* I can only have too many choices. They caught me in the middle, gave me some offer that can’t make me say no and so I’m just so pressured. Is this really an opportunity?
I say again that if not because of this pride thing, I’d surely go freelance after my military stint. I mean, do what I wanted to do most - design and code without bounds and bosses and do something for others like volunteering for one of my dream organizations. But these people closest to you are just the hardest to please. They won’t understand what you’re doing with your life until they know you’re earning big bucks. And slowly, you also start to think that going up the social and economic ladder would make you a greater person. Why do they have such a strong impact on your thoughts?
