Cureless - blog, works and personal site of Yoru

After that roller-coaster of emotions I felt a couple of days ago, I realized that I still really have a lot to learn about myself. I was really disturbed by the findings of the psychologist. I'm now 21, and yet, still very much in doubt about this whole self-introspection aspect. Telling me something like I am very emotional and I usually decide based on my feelings doesn't perfectly register on the list I prepared about myself. In reality, I am afraid to admit that fact because I haven't totally identified myself with it. I often think I could balance my feelings and rational thoughts, something that has been disproven by my recent psychological test, and my reaction to a few things that happened to me during the past days.

Enjoying the waiting hours at the hospital with my co-workers was the best way to momentarily forget about all these things running in my head. Talking with these people is very educating. I claim no inclination towards poetry but as if a blossom, we are slowly unfolding ourselves to each other as time passes by. Relationship with people, after all, is still the most important thing about working, aside of course from the compensation that's expected of it. And by far, the most important thing about relationships is honesty, being true to oneself. Although I hate to say this, I might again be adding a new category to my friends list. Neighborhood friends, grade and high school friends, college friends, net friends, and now, workmates.

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And speaking of workmates, we spent the Friday night and the morning after that, doing our programming assignments playing a PS2 Digimon multiplayer game at one of my workmates' house down south of Metro. (Now, I know how to commute to Taguig, Paranaque, Alabang and Las Piñas.) Hah! Great way to bond. I also got to play the Naruto (Part 1) game. Most of us are computer/game/programming/anime gr33ks anyways.

I think they're a bit contemplative about my reaction to the psychological exam results. The psychologist, BTW, asked me if I have/had a relationship. And I'm sure she was insinuating that emotional stability is achieved when one shares a special relationship with another person. In other words, you have a gf/bf, you're emotionally stable. Huh? The guys think the same. They gave advice/suggested me about having a boyfriend since I'm already 21 and already graduated from college. Fuuuh! That was the worst advice I've received in years. But I still forgive them for apologising about a certain thing and promising not to do it again. And I thank them for treating me fair and square as one of them.

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Before going home, I dropped by a dentist in Marikina to have my 5 of my teeth restored and consult about my wisdom tooth. I couldn't believe that I was advised by the dentist at the hospital to have my barely fullgrown upper left 3rd molar (wisdom tooth) extracted. If hasn't fully grown yet, how come the dentist diagnosed that it was impacted? Thank goodness, I won't lose my 3rd molar after the Marikina dentist refuted the findings.