Soon I will be taking my family to something that will be my greatest vacation, how things are going probably my last as well. We will go to Berlin with an airplane (what the hell dad,…
Some readers contacted me wondering where is all this money coming from. Suddenly find out I have terminal illness and I begin spending like there is no tomorrow. The thing is that I always wanted a…
Everyone in my family was always a movie freak. My son even wants to become a director in Hollywood, he always carries his camera around and makes all kinds of short videos. Daughter is pretty much…
The house that we live in is pretty old and it just doesn’t feel right leaving it this way knowing that I might not be there when something goes wrong. So here’s the home renovation plan….
When I was first diagnosed I was completely overwhelmed. Receiving such information is shocking to say the least. I have never smoked in my life, not even a single cigarette. I was eating right thanks to…
Soon I will be taking my family to something that will be my greatest vacation, how things are going probably my last as well.
We will go to Berlin with an airplane (what the hell dad, worst vacation ever) for the children to see the world, my wife to absorb the culture and the language she likes so much. And for me well, you could say I enjoy learning about World War II. We will visit all kind of places there for 5 days and then we will go back home, or so they will think.
We will board a plane to Croatia, I have worked for a client from there this year and the place looks simply amazing. We will visit all sorts of national parks, beaches and restaurants.
After that we are borrowing a yacht and going to Venice, Italy. From there we will stop at several Italian cities making our way to the other side of the coast. Eventually leading to Cannes, France. At which point my wife will probably have a heart attack from joy as she always wished to visit the country.
We will rent a car and make a way over the whole France, eventually visiting Paris and staying there for two days. Making sure to visit Louvre and Eiffel tower.
Afterwards I will take my family to Normandy, another area where so many brave lives were lost to stop the third reich. On the end of the day as I am sitting on the beach with my children I will be as descriptive as I can of the events that occurred there. Then describe to them what is happening with me and ask of them to be brave, and take care good care of their mother. I am not sure if I will have strength to tell them everything that is weighting down my heart.
I would like to thank all my friends who donated parts of their savings so I could make this a reality. I wish I could spend many more years with all of you. Thank you.
Some readers contacted me wondering where is all this money coming from. Suddenly find out I have terminal illness and I begin spending like there is no tomorrow.
The thing is that I always wanted a boat, all of my life. When I was very young I often went on fishing trips with my grandfather. Spend quality time, laugh, bring dinner home so grandmother can cook what we caught. I always felt proud of catching something, I felt as if I was chipping in somehow.
As I grew I suddenly wanted more than just a boat, I wanted a yacht. A nice big yacht like Palmer Johnson. Beautiful, fast, with lots of space, well decorated. Everything.
So time was passing by and I was saving money for children education, buying stuff when they broke, a new car every couple of years, the usual stuff. So the yacht of my dreams has always stayed a dream but over the many years still quite a bit of money accumulated.
In short I gave up on my old dream because my new dream is for my family to be happy with everything I’ve provided them even when I am gone. I want them to have a good house to live in, no debts, freedom to enjoy things they love without spending money. I want them to be happy, because they made me happy all of this years, we love each other after all.
So that’s about that of finances. Quality web designers earn a decent pay after all, only question is how smart are we about spending it.
Everyone in my family was always a movie freak. My son even wants to become a director in Hollywood, he always carries his camera around and makes all kinds of short videos. Daughter is pretty much the same except she is more into writing, she writes spectacular science fiction scripts and makes us read it all. She is patiently waiting for her brother to become good enough with video editing to make some of her fantasies a reality.
My wife and I just love watching, although there’s a difference in our tastes. I always preferred action movies and comedies while she cannot go without great horror or romance movies.
As much as we all love movies we don’t really have a big TV and we all pretty much watch movies on our computers. Well, that is about to change.
After all the changes I’ve done around the house and cleaning the basement as I’ve written in my last post I decided to make a super sweet home cinema down there with projector, comfortable seats, minibar, everything!
I have already bought and hidden the amazing Epson Home Cinema 5030UB projector which I was told was one of the best on the market. The next weekend I’ve arranged for my family to visit the grandparents while I need some “private time” to deal with anything.
Right then my friends will come along and install everything, including the Visual Apex VAPEX90100SE Electric Screen and Focal Chorus 714 5.1 surround system. This will be simply glorious.
Although I kind of have a feeling my son will mainly be using it for gaming. Still I can imagine many family moments watching movies down there, I can hardly wait.
The house that we live in is pretty old and it just doesn’t feel right leaving it this way knowing that I might not be there when something goes wrong.
So here’s the home renovation plan.
First of all I have to do something about electric wiring in the house. I am sure everyone is tired as I am from this old wiring that makes us have to shut down heating and all kind of appliances when we want to take a shower.
I will have to remove all my tools, ancient things from the basement and give it a good scrub. God knows what I might find down there.
I should also renovate the kitchen although it will be a while till I can reach that point. Thankfully one of my good friends is a home designer and I should be able to work something out. I can’t have my son bring a girl over one day and can’t even make her a snack due to faulty devices.
There are also lots of other minor things that should be done. Like changing the wallpapers, repainting the walls, changing the floor tiles. I should probably wait with those until we are done with the wiring.
Got lots of work to do in the basement so might as well start with that. Perhaps make a little private area for myself where I can be left alone with my thoughts.
When I was first diagnosed I was completely overwhelmed. Receiving such information is shocking to say the least.
I have never smoked in my life, not even a single cigarette. I was eating right thanks to my wife. Due to my work I was on the PC all day so I was even exercising regularly to stay in shape, and still I was diagnosed with lung cancer.
Where do you go with that information, how do you prepare yourself with next step. I started wondering about my life and things I’ve done and still wanted to do, about my friends, about my wife and leaving my little girls behind. Its a horrifying thought for a father to know that he will disappear out of his children lives soon and they will have to live emotionally scarred, financially worried…
I really don’t know what to do right now, I feel so weak and vulnerable, and even angry at the same time. I feel guilty for not spending more time with my family. I suppose I will need a while to get my thoughts straight, try to plan things out, prepare for treatment. All anyone can ever do is move forward.